On another positive note I finished my last first week of college! I have a secret to tell you though. Something you can’t tell any of my fellow class mates or art friends (I love you guys and I'm sure I'll get over myself soon enough). I hate art right now. It’s like the whiney, moody, over emotional friend that complains all the time. I am giving up SO MUCH to get this little piece of paper that says, “Hey you’re officially and adult now, and you supposedly can get a big girl job.” I don’t need this piece of paper. I don't need this last semester. I could be just as successful without this little piece of paper, but there is some little piece of stubborn in me that won’t let me walk away. It won’t let me give up one semester away. It tells me I will live with regret if I walk away and that is the last thing I want. But I am sick of reading pages and pages about what artists are ‘trying to say’. I am tired of professors telling me that I need to think of something completely different and creative so I can be a ‘real’ artist. I want to take amazing photographs that are technically and professionally crafted. I want to make images that make me happy. I don’t care what you think about the art I make. I don’t want anyone’s approval but mine. It makes me kind of mad that I have to waste my time listening to all this when I could be with my husband. When I could be home. It makes me mad that even though it isn’t directly said I hear it loud an clear that I shouldn’t have children because that isn’t what successful women do. I don’t freaking care what you or the world thinks I should do to be successful. I want teeny, squishy, rollie pollie babies! I want a whole house full of them, and I want them before I become professionally successful!! SO THERE, WORLD!!! I want to be a mom. I want to support my husband. I want to allow him to accomplish his goals. So I am here. I am in sunny, warm, Commerce, Texas. I am in my last semester of college. I am here to get my BFA and that’s what I’ll do.
And her is my recent life in pictures (so what if the only photos I've taken this week were of animals):
So I know I was kind of strong today, but I'm just being honest. I'm happy and I know this will all be worth it. Smile, because I'm pretty sure you just saw a picture of a chicken riding a goat.
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